No time!

1 Day = 24 hours
Sleep time = 8 hours (if I'm lucky)
Work time on average = 13 hours
travel time per day = 30 mins
actual awake home time = 2.5 hours

So about 90% doing work crap or sleeping and only 10% of my entire day being with my wife..... Somethings wrong with this entire picture. I hate it and it sucks. If I had kids it'd be even worse. How spending 90% of your life not interacting with your own family got to be ok and cool I'll never know. I spend over 50% of my waking life with people that work with. Thats 40% more than I do with the woman who I love more than anyone in the world! So how does that all work? Don't ask me. But I'm getting really tired of it and I'm currently looking into what it will take to start my own business. I know I'll still be working long hours but maybe at least I'll be able to do that with my family. I'm getting tired of working for the man!

Cheers,
Simon

I promised I'd write in this so I am! lol I wuv you baby doll Will add more soon.


Cheers,
Simon

i wonder why it is

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh.,..
Your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

Life update

Ok yeah so update on my life lol. Not much new really same old same. Still trying to get you know what and my wifey is having a really hard time with it. :( its so hard to see her this way. first off just hurting and second just sad and upset all the time. I hate it. I wish I could do something but there doesn't seem to be anything I can. I love her tons its just so hard to see her sad all the time. :( i hope we get prego soon. Its hard cause sometimes it makes me wonder if she really just wants a baby or if she wants a baby with me. I know that its the latter but sometimes it doesn't seem that way.

Workwise it's been pretty slow which has been nice. I'm sure it will pick up some more soon but i'm enjoying the easy days for now. Its kinda been giving me time to think about some ideas and stuff that i've been wanting to spend time with and what not. I used to do personal projects all the time and work on stuff and create art and whatnot but I've not really been doing that much for pretty much the last 2-3 years lol which kinda sucks and I miss it. So I've been tossing some ideas around in my head about maybe creating a short film or something not sure yet. But I hope to be able to start doing more of my own art work and to be able to express my personal creativity more than I have been. I've got like at least 5 feature films I'd like to do and maybe this could be a way into doing something like that........

Anyways i'm going to get back to work. Not a whole lot to do but oh well it'll give me some time to think about a project and my sweet wifey sleepin at home. I hope she gets a good rest and feels better when she wakes up.

I'm bored

We met our deadline for some stuff and am kinda just kicking back and waiting now. I miss my wifey and I wish I was going home. Bla bla. oh well I can't really complain I'm working on feature films so its pretty cool considering lol. Hope this one is good. From what i've seen (which I really can't talk about btw lol) it will be but we will see. Well you know what it's like only 30 mins till I get off..... hmmm wonder if I can slip out before :D oh well guess I'll just watch another video on youtube. Man my job isn't all that bad really hehe. My wifey is sleeping so when I get off maybe I'll run down to the store and get her something. we'll see. anyways I've got to run watch that movie. ttys cheers

And so I sit at work with beer in hand!

you read it right. :) Yep so today has been a bit of a disappointment you might say. It looks like Linds isn't prego which is really sad. I really hope that changes soon. For both of us. And yeah theres a party at work and everyone is downstairs having fun. And I'm up at my desk drinking a beer and missing my wife. I'm kinda sad that she doesn't feel like she can tell me stuff and that she feels alone in this. Cause she's not. I love her tons and wish I could be there for her more. I miss her terribly when I'm away especially when I know she's having a hard time too. Well I better put the beer away before I start crying.

Laters

just some basic updates

So yeah We're in Santa Maria now. I'm working at a special fx company called Cafe FX. Its a cool place so far. Been enjoying our project. I can't say too much about it due to NDAs but it's the based off the Stephen King short story called "The Mist". Should be interesting. The studio is nice and clean and its a good group of people to work with. Its nice to be in a place where I can focus on lighting. I do miss doing more of the advanced scripting that I've been trying to learn. Oh well guess I'll have to do that on my off time lol.

In other news... if you've been reading my wife's blog you will know that we've been trying to take the next step in old age and start on our insurance plan. i.e. Kids :D It's been a bit of a struggle. I really hope and pray that we are prego this time. I hate seeing my wife so sad when she finds out she's not. And I'm pretty bummed too cause I can't work till I'm 80. I need some good kids to take care of me :D but seriously I really would like to be a dad and I know it's hard for Linds too cause I think that's like one of her biggest dreams is to be a mommy. So yeah I just pray that Gods will would be done and that it's his will we be parents soon.

Oh and thirdly I just want to say I have a Freaking AWESOME Wife! She's the best thing that could have happened to me. And to all you guys out there (myself included), take good care of your woman we'd be up **** creek without them.

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